A new beginning
I procrastinated a lot before starting to write this. I wanted an imaginary perfect setup, with a dedicated writing-app that looked cool, when I had free time (we all know that's a myth), when it was quiet, when my head was in the right place - basically an utopia. This perfectionsim originates from the desire to mitigate the embarrasment from starting something new and from exposing myself and my thoughts. Tala puts this well in embarrasment is the price of entry:
You can’t sidestep the sting of being unpolished, unready, or simply seen.
If you are never embarrassed, chances are you're not trying anything new. Just orbiting that same small, familiar territory and mistaking your safety for progress.
This is "A new beginning" because it's the rekindling of my 18 year old poet. Back in 2020, in the middle of the pandemic, I was bored out of my mind and just wanted to express myself somehow, so I picked up a book and tried writing poems. It was great, I really felt like I could put my soul and feelings in paper, but for some reason, maybe just life, I stopped after a while. I'm thankful that bear has revived that feeling and desire to write in me, and I will start writing poems again and posting them here. (I will also translate my old poems to english as they were all in portuguese, and post them, if you can help me with this it would be awesome)
The final push for me were the many great articles I read in the last few days. On these dark times where everything seems to be AI generated slop or short-form content / brainrot, having a place to share your own thoughts and experiences, write something nice or motivating or simply honest, ramble, share art and moments of your day, feels soothing.
I found bear while I was reading HN and stumbled upon Herman's article being present. Having just a simple and straightforward interface instead of all the ad-filled bullshit we have nowadays instantly grabbed my attention and made me look at bear's other posts, where article after article everything was welcoming and interesting. Just people being people, writing about their lives, their feelings, or any silly things really. This is great, and I hope I can find my place here.